The end of us

This time, it's different isn't it?

It all happened with that one incident. Made you lose all trust in me.
Made you lose faith in us. Made you give up completely.

What about me? It isn't fair to me. I've been trying so hard, putting in so much effort trying to save this relationship. And you're just sitting there, taking everything for granted, thinking I'll never walk away.
Yes, I don't walk to walk away cause I love you and I can't bear to.
But seeing you like this, being able to lead a better life without me, being happier without me, feeling less pressurised without me, I've to walk away. I no longer feel your love..

I'm sorry I didn't cherish you enough in the past. And now when I want to, it's too late because you've already decided to walk away. You no longer love me like you used to. All I feel is pretence everyday. You don't reassure me anymore, I don't feel warmth in your voice and embrace anymore.. I no longer feel loved by you.. You don't want me anymore; it's clear in your actions.

All our good times..they were nothing to you? You said we'll be together forever and always, and overcome every obstacle together.
But where are you now when I need a listening ear? A shoulder to cry on? To rely on? You're walking away now..

It's all my fault. Its all because of me. I don't deserve you at all..

The one that got away

Sometimes you promise someone forever but it doesn't work out that way. I know it's over between us when you started being cold. I really miss the old you. The present you...is so different. I'm afraid. I'm really afraid of losing you cause you mean a lot to me.

Those eight months, they may mean nothing to you, but they mean a great deal to me. We went through everything together and you're giving up now. You never used to be like this. You promised to stay forever. I no longer feel warmth and comfort in your voice, I'm scared baby. I'm really scared.

Everything you do now, you make me feel unwanted and worthless. It's as if I no longer exist in your life. You promised me to fight for this no matter what, but that promise seems pointless now. You don't fight for me anymore and it hurts real bad. I know it's just a matter of time before this ends. You don't know how I cry in the bathroom every night, feeling so hurt.

You'll never know because you don't care anymore.

Oh hi. It's been ages since I posted. I know right. You can literally hear the crickets right here in this blog of mine because it's so so DEAD.

Hmm, life has been pretty fine. My time spent is mostly in school so yeah. ANYWAY. The September holidays are coming! That is like, totally awesome! I know right! The little voice in my head is kinda like telling me to catch up on my studies this holidays but...WHO CARES. I'm gonna sleep in till the sun shines down on my butt. LOL. I'm also praying hard that I won't have to go for neMation! Another thing that I'm praying for is that the teachers won't screw up MY holiday by giving so much assignments for E-learning. I'll seriously screw their ass up.

I think I'm a good kid! I'm actually studying for an open book test! Searching for essays on the web...sounds kinda desperate...

Tons and tons of problems surfacing...be it family or friends...hmm. Never mind. I'll survive. I can and I will.

Bye.

What a weird world

I'm back to post, like finally. I haven't been busy lately but I didn't really wanna make updates on my life so I didn't really post for a couple of days. Lol.

Ohkay, so school's starting on Monday. Fmylife. I'm still left with plenty of assignments NOT DONE. Awesome, Iknowright. Anddddddddd, my body clock's screwed. I'll probably be late for school on Monday. Awesome much ._.

I should really get back to my work...but I don't wanna. Lol. Assignments totally bore me out x.x Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I am gonna be a good kid for the second semester. Ohkay, you guys would be think I'm crapping. But I'm absolutely serious on being one. I need to get back on the right track!

Hmm, I should be going. Bye bye!

I did it again...

******, I'm pretty sure you'll never read this, but if some divine miracle you do, I never have stopped thinking about you, I remember the day you asked me to be yours.. I relive that moment every night before I go to sleep. Call me crazy if you want, but I don't want to be sane. I want to create more memories with you. Although our love story has had many bumps and pot holes along the way, we've always found our ways back to each other. I'd love more than anything to be truly yours again...